May 4, 2006
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IN THE ROUGH
[Note: I am not posting this in search of pat answers. Trust me, I know them all and then some (that's the bad side of having a degree in biblical studies). Most times they just do not suffice the ache in my soul in my need for Him.]Today was hard. No, my boss was not upset with me. No, Rachel has not called off the wedding (to my knowledge). I was becoming very frustrated with work where some of my equipment was giving me fits, I was out of water and it was hot and very dusty outside. At one point I had to sit down and just tell God how I felt. I was so blunt and honest that even Christine would have been shocked to hear some of the words that came out of my mouth. No, thank goodness I was not struck down but He listened which He's really good at that I have learned.
Later I was pondering the great mysteries of Life and God's ways... why do we as people tend to instantly blame or become upset with God for everything bad? Thinking over this, my tendancy to blame God probably stems from my childhood belief that I was the butt of some ongoing cosmic joke gone bad. It was good to vent but at the same time scary to see some of these issues that have laid dormant in my heart rearing their ugly heads. So I ask Christ to change my attitude and view of Him and how He works. In view of this, be prepared for tomorrow is Haiku Friday.
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Today I met a girl from Turkey. She is a Christian and is here on student visa. She started crying as she was telling me that her parents are being greatly persecuted and literally beaten everyday. Her mother is sick and she is not sure if she will be able to even have the strength to into hiding. Just that morning I had been complaining about how I dont feel like I am getting enough credit for my work or that I don't get the respect for my abilities. When I met that girl, I realized how retarded I had been. I just grabbed her and hugged her and she just cried.
venting is good. God is already there, He already knows the mess, right? Because He's right there in it with you, no need to clean it up, or attempt to clean up our language, I'm quite confident that He can take it.
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